The Host Chapter 19: Abandoned

Who is the Seeker in dark? For what reason is it still searching?† Jared's yell was stunning, reverberating at me from all sides. I holed up behind my hands, sitting tight for the main blow. â€Å"Ah-Jared?† Ian mumbled. â€Å"Maybe you should let me†¦Ã¢â‚¬  â€Å"Stay out of it!† Ian's voice drew nearer, and the stones ground as he attempted to follow Jared into the little space that was at that point excessively full. â€Å"Can't you see it's too terrified to even consider talking? Disregard it for a sec - â€Å" I heard something scratch the floor as Jared moved, and afterward a crash. Ian reviled. I looked through my fingers to see that Ian was not, at this point noticeable and Jared had his back to me. Ian spit and moaned. â€Å"That's twice,† he snarled, and I comprehended that the punch implied for me had been redirected by Ian's impedance. â€Å"I'm all set for three,† Jared murmured, yet he turned around to confront me, carrying light with him; he'd got the light with the hand that had struck Ian. The cavern appeared to be practically splendid after so much haziness. Jared addressed me once more, investigating my face in the new enlightenments, making each word a sentence. â€Å"Who. Is. The. Seeker.† I dropped my hands and gazed into his savage eyes. It irritated me that another person had languished over my quiet even somebody who had once attempted to murder me. This was not how torment should function. Jared's appearance faltered as he read the adjustment in mine. â€Å"I don't need to hurt you,† he said unobtrusively, not as certain about himself. â€Å"But I do need to know the solution to my question.† This wasn't even the correct inquiry not a mystery I was at all bound to secure. â€Å"Tell me,† he demanded, his eyes tight with disappointment and profound despondency. Is it true that i was really a defeatist? I would prefer to have accepted that I was-that my dread of torment was more grounded than all else. The genuine explanation I opened my mouth and talked was a great deal more regrettable. I needed to satisfy him, this human who detested me so wildly. â€Å"The Seeker,† I started, my voice harsh and rough; I hadn't spoken in quite a while. He intruded, eager. â€Å"We definitely know it's a Seeker.† â€Å"No, an extraordinary Seeker,† I murmured. â€Å"My Seeker.† â€Å"What do you mean, your Seeker?† â€Å"Assigned to me, tailing me. She's simply the explanation - † I got not long before I expressed the word that would have implied our demise. Not long before I could state we. A definitive truth that he would see as a definitive falsehood playing on his most profound wishes, his most profound agony. He could never observe that it was workable for his desire to be valid. He would just observe a hazardous liar watching out through the eyes he'd cherished. â€Å"The reason?† he provoked. â€Å"The reason I ran away,† I relaxed. â€Å"The reason I came here.† Not so much evident, however not so much a falsehood, either. Jared gazed at me, his mouth half-open, as he attempted to process this. From the edge of my eye, I could see that Ian was peering through the gap once more, his clear blue eyes wide with shock. There was blood, dim on his pale lips. â€Å"You fled from a Seeker? In any case, you're one of them!† Jared attempted to pull it together, to return to his cross examination. â€Å"Why would it tail you? What did it want?† I gulped; the sound appeared to be unnaturally uproarious. â€Å"She needed you. You and Jamie.† His demeanor solidified. â€Å"And you were attempting to lead it here?† I shook my head. â€Å"I didn't†¦ I†¦Ã¢â‚¬  How would I be able to clarify it? He'd never acknowledge reality. â€Å"What?† â€Å"I†¦ would not like to advise her. I don't care for her.† He flickered, befuddled once more. â€Å"Don't all of you need to like everyone?† â€Å"We're assumed to,† I conceded, shading with disgrace. â€Å"Who did you tell about this place?† Ian asked behind Jared. Jared frowned however kept his eyes all over. â€Å"I couldn't tell-I didn't know†¦ I just observed the lines. The lines on the collection. I drew them for the Seeker†¦ however we didn't have the foggiest idea what they were. She despite everything believes they're a street map.† I was unable to appear to quit talking. I attempted to make the words come more slow, to shield myself from a slip. â€Å"What do you mean you didn't have the foggiest idea what they were? You're here.† Jared's hand flexed toward me yet dropped before it shut the little separation. â€Å"I†¦ I was experiencing difficulty with my†¦ with the†¦ with her memory. I didn't understand†¦ I was unable to get to everything. There were dividers. That is the reason the Seeker was allocated to me, sitting tight for me to open the rest.† Too much, to an extreme. I bit my tongue. Ian and Jared traded a look. They'd never heard anything like this. They didn't confide in me, however they needed so urgently to trust it was conceivable. They needed it to an extreme. That made them dread. Jared's voice whipped out with an unexpected cruelty. â€Å"Were you ready to get to my cabin?† â€Å"Not for a long time.† â€Å"And then you told the Seeker.† â€Å"No.† â€Å"No? Why not?† â€Å"Because†¦ when I could recall it†¦ I would not like to tell her.† Ian's eyes were solidified wide. Jared's voice changed, turned out to be low, practically delicate. A great deal more hazardous than the yelling. â€Å"Why would not you like to tell her?† My jaw bolted hard. It was not the mystery, yet at the same time, it was a mystery he would need to destroy of me. At this time, my assurance to hold my tongue had less to do to occupy self time safeguarding than it did with a moronic, hesitant sort of pride. I would not tell this man who detested me that I adored him. He viewed the rebellion streak in my eyes, and he appeared to comprehend what it would take to find this solution. He chose to skip it-or perhaps to return to it later, spare it for last, on the off chance that I wouldn't have the option to respond to additional inquiries when he was finished with me. â€Å"Why would you say you weren't ready to get to everything? Is that†¦ normal?† This inquiry was perilous, as well. Just because up until now, I lied. â€Å"She fell far. The body was damaged.† Lying didn't come effectively to me; this falsehood bombed. Jared and Ian both responded to the bogus note. Jared's head positioned to the side; one of Ian's ink dark eyebrows rose. â€Å"Why isn't this Seeker surrendering like the rest?† Ian inquired. I was unexpectedly depleted. I realized they could keep this up throughout the night, would keep this up the entire night on the off chance that I kept on replying, and in the long run I would commit an error. I drooped against the divider and shut my eyes. â€Å"I don't know,† I murmured. Dislike different spirits. She's†¦ annoying.† Ian chuckled once-a frightened sound. â€Å"And you-will be you like other†¦ souls?† Jared inquired. I opened my eyes and gazed at him tediously for a long second. What an idiotic inquiry, I thought. At that point I shut my eyes tight, covered my face against my knees, and folded my arms over my head. Either Jared comprehended that I was finished talking or his body was whining too boisterously to possibly be disregarded. He snorted a couple of times as he pressed himself out of the opening of my cavern, taking the light with him, and afterward moaned unobtrusively as he extended. â€Å"That was unexpected,† Ian murmured. â€Å"Lies, of course,† Jared murmured back. I could marginally make out their words. They most likely didn't understand how the sound reverberated back to me in here. â€Å"Only†¦ I can't exactly make sense of what it needs us to accept where it's attempting to lead us.† â€Å"I don't believe it's lying. All things considered, aside from the one time. Did you notice?† â€Å"Part of the act.† â€Å"Jared, when have you at any point met a parasite who could lie about anything? But a Seeker, of course.† â€Å"Which it must be.† â€Å"Are you serious?† â€Å"It's the best explanation.† â€Å"She-it is the uttermost thing from a Seeker I've at any point seen. On the off chance that a Seeker had any thought how to discover us, it would have brought an army.† â€Å"And they wouldn't have discovered anything. In any case, she-it got in, didn't it?† â€Å"It's nearly been executed about six - â€Å" â€Å"Yet it's despite everything breathing, isn't it?† They hushed up for quite a while. So long that I began to consider moving out of the confined ball I was nestled into, I would not like to make any commotion by resting. I wished Ian would leave so I could rest. The adrenaline forgot about me so worn when it depleted from my framework. â€Å"I believe I will go converse with Jeb,† Ian in the long run murmured. â€Å"Oh, that is an incredible idea.† Jared's voice was thick with mockery. â€Å"Do you recall that first night? When it hopped among you and Kyle? That was bizarre.† â€Å"It was simply attempting to figure out how to remain alive, to escape†¦Ã¢â‚¬  â€Å"By giving Kyle the thumbs up to execute her-it? Great plan.† â€Å"It worked.† â€Å"Jeb's firearm worked. Did she realize he was on his way?† â€Å"You're overthinking this, Ian. That is the thing that it wants.† â€Å"I don't believe you're correct. I don't know why†¦ yet I don't think she needs us to consider her at all.† I heard Ian get to his feet. â€Å"You recognize what's truly twisted?† he murmured, his voice not, at this point a murmur. â€Å"What's that?† â€Å"I felt regretful blameworthy as hellfire watching her jump away from us. Seeing the dark checks on her neck.† â€Å"You can't let it get to you like that.† Jared was out of nowhere upset. â€Å"It's not human. Remember that.† â€Å"Just in light of the fact that she isn't human, do you imagine that implies she doesn't feel pain?† Ian asked as his voice blurred into the separation. â€Å"That she doesn't feel simply like a young lady who's been beaten-beaten by us?† â€Å"Get a hold of yourself,† Jared murmured after him. â